She sucks at life but at least she's trying.

Life is real hard. It's hard to get through and even harder to get out of. Life is like a gym membership that has a really complicated cancellation policy. So I'm giving life a try.

Even though I am impatient and freak out at any single minor inconvenience, I'm doing my best. Sana says I'm a liar but Sana is wrong. (This is me @ inconveniences^^)

I'm putting in maximum effort in school, trying to keep my grades up while staying sane and keeping everyone around me happy. I don't deal well with any sort of stress, heck I almost cried today when someone ran in my direction when we were playing football because I was the goalie. I am a procrastinator. I've procrastinated all my life. I'm actually surprised that I am doing this at a decent hour instead of 1am like I usually do with all my homework. My social skills are sub par. I can't have a normal conversation for more than 20 minutes without making it slightly weird. I have a capacity for how much I care about people. It's ridiculous but if I care too much and get too invested, people get freaked so I cut myself off at a certain point. I mess up most of the friendships/relationships I make just by freaking out over small things and pushing people away because of my anxiety. I vex my parents, mostly my mom, and often don't take their advice even though they are 100% correct at the time.

Life is just a struggle for me. I take it day to day and try to be the best person I can be. That doesn't always work because I am incredibly impatient and have no time for anything that is even slightly inconvenient, but I try. Trying is all I can do until I become proficient at dealing with bull crap and people.

So yes, I kind of really suck at life but I mean who doesn't? And at least I am trying my best. The way I see it, I'll try my best every day but won't be too bothered if I still suck because we all end up dying in the end. Game over. So I'll try. And keep trying. That's all I can do.